“Catholicism – walking in a snowy parking lot – cold & slushy, more flakes coming down – grey all around – stained glass – confusion, questions – crosses – smoke and candles – inconsistencies – disagreement – unexplained – unexplainable? – books”
I was raised Catholic. But I didn’t really believe. So when Confirmation approached, I told my mom I wasn’t doing it. (A fight ensued.)
I sometimes wish I believed in someone to pray to.
But I don’t. And I can’t just wake up and decide to.
I can’t just throw faith out into a mysterious something that may or may not have someone in it.
This needs more thought.
February 10, 2008

I went for a walk at lunch, even though it was disturbingly cold and I have a terrible cough.
Not sure why.
Took some pretty pictures.
Easier to freeze than think about a crush, maybe.
Because I have one.
January 16, 2008